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Part of a Father’s story while Raising Godly Girls…
The horse named Raven is spectacular.
A rather large girl, well over 1200 lbs. and covered in a shaggy long black winter coat of hair, tapering to huge hooves. She is a Percheron, complete with an elegant thundering gait and graceful black flowing mane. Her gentle eyes hide the most remarkable intuition I’ve ever experienced. She has a gaze that gently probes into one’s very soul if you let her.
I met Raven in Anderson IN, at a very special place. The Selah House for young women struggling with eating disorders.
My youngest daughter was finishing up a two-month visit there. She was in the final stages of her recovery. The entire family was asked to come for several days of group discussion and therapy. Part of their care included “equine therapy”?
I had no idea what that was but I was dedicated to doing “whatever it takes” to help my daughter. I jumped right in …. so to speak.
Dr. Don Zimmerman and his amazing wife Linda met my daughter and me on a frosty cold February morning and led us into the barn. When I asked what to expect in our three-hour session.. they smiled with their eyes, a kind-patient– warmth deep within them. They said, “you’ll just have to experience it for yourself.”
So we did and the next three hours were magical.
Raven was introduced to us and stood patiently by my side, at first uncomfortably close. Her bottom was at least six inches higher than my head (I’m pretty big at 6’4 and 230 lbs). Her head was easily the size of my waist. She quietly listened to Dr. Don and Linda as they explained what we were to do. Then, the “professionals” left the indoor corral and watched expectantly for us to start our therapy.
It was a bit intimidating to stand alone that close to a draft horse as massive as Raven, but we did. The goal of the session was simple, but odd at the same time.
“We want you to lead Raven through a series of activities without touching her or feeding her. You can talk to her and walk around her, but you can’t touch”, Diane said smiling.
Those ‘activities’ were simple enough. I was to have her walk through a series of cones, and stand still for a minute between two boards on the ground. Then to walk her through a small obstacle course and over a small gate. All in 3 hours. Without touching her? Right 🙂
We were told a horse instinctively “knows” if someone is trustworthy and authentic. Thankfully, we passed that test. Raven seemed to trust us and we could safely walk her around the corral without being trampled. The Zimmerman’s explained we would need to be very clear and confident with her if we were to succeed. We needed to be obvious about what we wanted her to do for and with us.
- If we were clear, she would do it.
- If we acted in uncertainty, were confused or acted out of sync with each other, she would balk.
Seemed simple enough…
An hour later I was convinced I was an idiot
Raven had snorted, stomped and shuffled, but not actually in any of the places I wanted her to go or be. My daughter and I had begged, pleaded and walked her around the entire corral without any of our objectives being met.
Desperation was growing, it seemed we wouldn’t get this figured out.
Dr. Don stepped into the corral with some gentle words of guidance and Raven came right up to him as we talked. She nuzzled us. When we talked about our family and the patterns of communication and dysfunction we experienced, Raven got even closer until it was clear she was gently touching my daughter’s arm in affection. (How a 1200lb animal can be so gentle, delicate and careful with a 100lb girl is amazing to watch)
Dr. Don explained, we needed to be clearer and more confident in our actions. We are to walk side by side with Raven walking in between us. Walking together in sync at the same pace and stride. Then she would do whatever we wanted her to. But not if we stood in front of her, behind her or at an angle. Raven was more than happy to follow once we sorted it all out and we soon finished up our assignments.
Raven never left our side and as we stopped to discuss what we had learned. Tears flowed and Raven bent to nuzzle my daughter. Like she could understand her… feel her pain, her frustration with life. That horse was touching a very intimate and tender spot in my girl. The spectacular truth of it hit me. Here was this amazingly huge draft horse, carefully and lovingly comforting a tiny young woman without any words. Equine Therapy indeed!
I left the barn knowing a whole lot more about myself and how I should be leading my family than time permits me to share.
Crazy I know, but seriously….that horse “got us”.
She could sense the struggles my daughter and I were having. The ways we didn’t trust each other and the uncertainty of how to move forward from where we were in life to being open and clear with each other as a dad and daughter should be.
The mystery and beauty of that afternoon will be a treasure for life.
That beautiful girl Raven was kind, sensitive and patient enough to teach us some profound lessons on how to be a family. She showed us how to be a team. Horses can sense our deepest fears. They feel our pain and release our tension by us taking the time to simply “be” with them.
Raven is an amazing example. Her power of beauty and gentle strength was used to unravel some of the tough emotional knots. Ones that tie families up for a lifetime.
Equine Therapy provides deep insights to many families in crisis. If your family is struggling with an eating disorder situation… I highly recommend looking up Dr. Don and Linda to see for yourself what I’m talking about.
And to Dr. Don, Linda and Raven… “thank you” from the bottom on my heart!
Peace and Grace,
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∞ ABOUT THE AUTHOR ∞
Parenting should be full of faith, family and adventure… not dread, frustration and regret. His blog, Road Trip Parenting is designed to serve as a fun and practical resource for parents, pastors, and those who serve kids.
Pastor Brad Mathias works as a bi-vocational Pastor of Four Winds Anglican Mission in Columbia, Tennessee, co-host of the Brilliantly Brave Podcast, along with serving as the President of the TGA. (Tween Gospel Alliance).
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